Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Prisoner and the guard


Everytime after walk, mom put milly upside down
the fan facing her blow dry her wet belly 
for half and hour...
Sometimes even longer
Mom said milly is in prison, so is she.
To pass the time, she talked to her, sang to her and scratch her belly.
Does she enjoy it? 
I don't know
She just let us do it for as long as we wish
until we say "OK"
then she turns
The roast duck is done!


Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Mind my business


I am so excited to receive this stamp! 

Reason no. 1: I designed it
Reason no. 2: I purchase from local artist
Reason no. 3: It is very cheap
Reason no. 4 My "business" looks more serious with a stamp
Reason no. 5: It is always fun to stamp!

Maybe I should seriously think about using it for my bank.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

To walk a pug


I am her number one favourite street buddy, definitely. 

Every evening if my mom takes out the leash, she ducks under the chair, under the table, or under the bed.

When the leash is on my hand, she would come out and greet it, bark in a happy manner and breathe heavily.

I guess I win her heart by giving her more freedom on the street.

She would jump over the drain cover to save her feets from trapping in there, even the holes on it are tiny. She would bark against other dogs from far but she never dared to get close. She doesn't know how to enter a moving escalator, but she knows how to leave. She would lie down flat on floor upon return to the lift lobby in summer. Because the lobby is air-conditioned and the floor is made of stone.

These things repeat and repeat, but I never feel bored, I like her accompnay.

Thursday, July 16, 2015

被時代選中的我們


在書展買了這本出版已有一段日子的雨傘書。

雨傘書相集、畫集、文集不少,也不知道哪本是有質素、哪本叫完整、哪本觀點精闢;最後看到很多意見領袖都願意推介這本,就買下,當留個記念,別去想這本是否最抵買或最應該買就是了。

登上巴士,掀著掀著讀,感覺馬上就湧回來。

那種自我感覺良好、愛、守望、最壞的年代最好的年代甚麼的,即使不切實際,對普選沒有半點用,但只要上過一次街,這些感覺就永遠附隨身上;書寫得出色絕頂還是未夠火候,其實都不重要。讀幾句,感覺馬上返晒來。

雖然對香港未來只感無奈非常,但對於那幾十天的事,心中還是有一種類似江湖兄弟的一記「好!」的感覺。即使大家曾經有過忐忑、質疑、或支持但不絕對支持,但只要隨著心中大方向就好。我們畢竟是同路人,有幸一起在途上。





Sunday, July 5, 2015

Imperfection


Asymmetric, poorly calculated shadow, casual handwriting, this is the product of my impatience.

I am not saying I like it anyway because I worked on it. No. It is still very ugly, but there was something interesting from this absolutely unskilled work.


When I was mixing the colour, "Oh what the hack I am mixing? The green doesn't look like glass at all."

When I was working on the reflecting spot, "Come on, it is so awkward, just like a white square."

When I was putting on the outline of the bottle,  "I wish I had not put on the outline. But it is too late now."

Problems were magnified during the process. They led me to treat the sheet even more slovenly. 

The night when I looked at it again, it is still a poorly drawn bottle, but I didn't feel as angry as when I was working on it. 

Maybe that's what people say, "You have a better picture when you look from a distance." 

Someone like Kandinsky could draw a square bottle and argue that you just don't understand the curve in it; for me, I'd better make no excuse and learn the classical way.

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Natural like breathing

After years of walking next to each other,  
my best friend Deniece is marrying Ken soon
No surprise, no overjoy, no agitation, no drama
they make their way to the church
as natural as like breathing




But, isn't it good that we are breathing? 


Sunday, June 7, 2015

由風扇開始講


舅父說:「我好掛住呢啲風扇,一條繩拉一拉就開。原來你屋企仲有。」

阿媽答:「好似以前奶婆個閣仔咁,佢一上閣仔,拉一拉繩就全閣仔光晒。我哋嗰時仲點緊火水燈咋,佢已經有電。梗係啦,佢嗰時開舖頭,賣米嘅。」

舅父:「我記得啲人成日讚佢煮野好食,其實係因為佢落得油多。佢嗰時唔肯節衣縮食,偷偷地買油煮餸,所以先咁好食。」

過咗一日,阿媽繼續回味:「我哋細個成日去奶婆度玩,佢間舖好大架,喺大欖,喺我哋小欖隔離,賣米既,拎啲米返嚟磨左佢先賣。」

「另一邊賣酒,有好多酒埕,一個個好大個鑲喺個櫃度。櫃上面有一個個匙羹,寫住一兩二兩,用嚟賣酒。我嗰時一隻腳踩住地下,另一隻腳跨上個櫃度...唔得架,整跌啲羹就聽俾人鬧死。阿舅母好惡架,叫我地唔好喺度玩。」她笑出來,好似仲係當年那個爬酒櫃的丫頭一樣。

「阿婆煮野好好食架,佢對人好囉,成日請人食嘢,所以鬥地主嗰陣,啲人都冇供佢出嚟。」

「我哋叫佢做奶婆,其實即係外婆。佢成日喺閣仔上面伸個頭出嚟望落嚟。」

「有時過節,我哋去食飯,有時食頭圍,有時食尾圍。我地細路仔,邊記得點解有飯食,總之就有啦。好多人食架,又有雞,仲有盞大光燈照住,好威。奶婆好好既,我地就時時食完拎隻脾番去俾阿麻食。」

我問:「咁婆婆細個咪好有錢?」

阿媽答:「係呀,以前婆婆係有錢架,係阿公冇錢啫。不過阿麻就醒呢,佢啲仔女全部都跟有錢人。三姑媽係,二姑媽又係,二姑媽個老公件衫腳掛住舊玉嘅。阿公就娶左婆婆。」

「婆婆三歲就死老豆,奶婆係靠自己一個人做生意,好叻架啦嗰陣時。有時婆婆冇嘢食,都係去奶婆度攞嘢畀我哋食。」

阿媽自動波大談佢同外婆的故事,佢嗰種嚮往同自豪,仲有童真,令我諗起我阿婆。

我哋冇好親密嘅婆孫關係,我冇印象我同佢有點樣接觸,我仲唔係好聽得明佢啲鄉下話,但佢算係非常和藹嘅老人家,尤其是晚年都算成日笑口常開,仲經常戴一頂手塚治虫或畢加索會戴的畫家帽出街。佢成世人都乾乾淨淨,在白加士街住時,屋企養咗隻貓。

我喺佢死後先慢慢知道佢嘅好人好事:我舅父話七八十年代,就算屋企生活困難,婆婆都瘋狂帶電器衣服物資返鄉下畀屋企人、喺我舅父經歷離婚時,雖然佢自己已經好老,離婚並唔係佢年代嘅嘢,但佢仍然好有力咁支持個仔;我阿媽話佢啞忍阿公有外遇;仲有死後大家先發現,佢一早幫自己準備好晒吉儀入晒紙巾,毋須晚輩操心。

我阿媽點樣回想起奶婆,或者就同我點樣回想我阿婆差唔多。我估我阿婆唔會諗到,佢頂帽、佢隻貓或者係佢自己摺定吉儀呢啲喺佢整個人生中唔多重要嘅點滴,會留喺我心裡面。而奶婆都應該唔會估到,佢閣樓嗰盞燈,會成為佢嘅標誌。

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